05/29/08
Why was I upset? It wasn’t only because they didn’t wait for me… hmm… it was part of it… but not entirely about it. This is the second time they did this to me! Weekend is the only time we can sit together and eat and talk … It’s one of the few things I look forward to… Then they would tell me that we were hungry and knew I was going home late (as usual), so they went ahead. When I arrived and asked why they went ahead without me, instead of apologizing…they even sounded as if it was my fault that I arrived late (everyday)… they spoke as if it’s my fault that my office is located far from civilization and our bus driver drives like a turtle! I was so hungry… but I lost my appetite… I was just so upset I was looking forward to it the whole week … but they didn’t bother to wait for me…even if I didn’t ask me to…it should’ve been an unspoken thing…
Normally, . My office hours ends at 6pm. their office ends at 5pm, they arrive at 7pm… 7:30 is the latest…I, on other hand, go home at 8pm… that is the earliest possible… there are times that I reach home at 9pm… So what is left for me to do…is to eat, rest for a couple minutes, take a shower and go to bed. That’s it! So weekend is the only time I can afford do to something else than my routine.
Sometimes, I ask them do something or go somewhere for me so that I could save time. In all fairness to them, most of the time they are happy to grant my favor. However, when it’s my turn to do their favor, most of time I refuse… I refuse because sometimes it gets so much of my little time left. Being stuck in a terrible traffic is bad enough…and sometimes, they still ask me to go somewhere to get something for them…and if I refuse… it always taken against me… I have my to explain myself every time knowing that they are full aware of my situation. But when I explain I make sure that I make clear that it’s not that I don’t want to, it’s because I can’t… I’m too tired… Sometimes, as I arrive home, they ask me to go somewhere with them, and they can’t even understand I’m too tired!
Now, our time during weekends… they said that “gutom na gutom na kame eh”…that was the best excuse they could come up with… they weren’t going against time here…just their stomachs…
“alam naman namen na late ka darating eh, kaya kumain na kami!” … Now they knew I go home late… now they understood the gravity of it. Pero pag sila ang may kailangan, hindi nila maintindihan, kailangan ko pa makiusap at ipaintindi sa kanila. Pero pag sila, sila pa ang arogante!
05/30/08
I was late at church not because I woke up late… but because someone used to bathroom for a long time…and after using it didn’t apologize for keeping me waiting…considering she knew that I’ve been using that particular time to bathe… but the important thing for me was I made it…even though I was late…
In the middle of the service I received a text from a friend asking me if I was mad about the last night. I didn’t know what to say because I couldn’t convey and put to words my thoughts…
We went shopping in the afternoon…
05/31/08
Nothing special happened today. Nothing exciting… nothing bad either…normal day… we stayed home the rest of the day!
TODAY:
One of my pet peeves is when people keep on complaining and complaining about something yet not doing anything about it!
I really..really…really want to resign from my work!
June 1, 2008
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