I was unable to update my blog in the past couple of weeks because I was busy here at the office and too tired to type my thoughts when I got home. Also, there hasn’t been anything exceptional happened in my life. My social life has been on idle status for a long time. The [...]
drama queen attacks!
Last night I cried myself to sleep. I cried and cried till my eyes were exhausted and finally shut. I just let myself cry for I haven’t cried for months. The strangest thing was I didn’t really have a reason for those tears. I’ve been a little upset but too upset to cry like that. [...]
confusion part 2
I feel what I feel. I won’t apologize for it. I’m confused about a lot of things. I’ve wanted to go home so bad that it became an unacknowledged obsession of mine. For several weeks, I’ve been in a confused state of mind. The thought of going home doesn’t appeal to me as much as [...]
LOST IN INTERPRETATION
I have been assessing myself if I tend to read so much into things. We all have our own interpretations of the world. We tell ourselves what things mean and what to do about them. So I’ve been asking myself if things what I deem wrong are in reality wrong or I just interpret them [...]
mean girl
I’m generally not a mean a person (at the very least I don’t think so). I only pull out the mean girl in me when the situation calls for it. I make a conscious effort not to say or do cruel things to others. I save my biAtchness exclusively for blogging purposes. Like now, I’m [...]
catch 22
I’m a in a catch-22 situation. Catch-22 is a military term that became a title of a novel, and eventually became an idiom expression for a no-win situation. Wikipedia defines it as an expression that refers to a rule, regulation, procedure or situation that creates a dilemma where no real choice exists. Its premise [...]
diary entry 19: i feel lifeless
I’ve been trying to think of something intellectual or perhaps inspiring to write here on my blog…Since there isn’t so much exciting happening in my life, maybe I could just blog about some of my smart or inspiring thoughts so that someday when I look back and read my blog I’d would reminisce on how [...]
dream or nightmare or whatsoever
Everything seemed to be all too familiar. It felt like it was something that we had been doing for quite some time. We seemed so comfortable with each other. It seemed we were so accustomed to everything. We acted as if it was just something we normally did. “Bad day?” he asked with a genuine [...]
have i?
Have I been looking at my circumstances negatively? Have I been complaining too often? Have I been so unappreciative? Have I been seeing my glass of water as half empty instead of half full? Have I been a walking contradiction of what I always believed in? Have I been dealing with my issues wrongly? Have [...]
regret
A surge of regret swarms me. All of a sudden, I feel like that I made a huge mistake. But it’s too late to take it back now. Changing my mind is no longer an option. I can’t return to the past and reverse my actions. I was reluctant. I was unsure. I was doubtful. [...]
