the longest journey begins with a single step

05/08/08

The complexity of relationships is a mystery to me. Relationships involve a lot of work. When I say relationships I’m not just pertaining to the romantic relationships…but also to familial and platonic ones. All kinds of relationships are complicated. You have to make a connection with someone to start one. You must share a part of yourself to create a bond. You have to invest effort and time to deepen it. Sometimes, too much time spent with each other can cut the tie between two people. I really think that sometimes you have to keep a degree of distance to sustain any kind of relationship. Sometimes, it is really important to maintain a certain amount of space between two people. Too much time spend with anyone can also damage your relationship with him/her. It’s important to have boundaries.

Boundaries. I think I need that…

05/09/08

I thank God for another privilege to go to Church. I almost didn’t make it on time.

I had time to use the internet for hours. I did researches. Chatted with friends. Checked people’s blogs and friendster/facebook profiles… I wanted to catch up with the lives of people I’ve known for years…I wanted to know things like, who’s successful in his/her chosen field, who’s married, who already has kids, who’s working, who remains a burden to the society, who’s abroad, who’s making something great out his/her life…and who’s making his/her life miserable…

some surprised me…some disappointed me…some shocked me…some even depressed me…

They got me thinking if they’re happy with their lives… if they’re proud of what they’ve become… if they are satisfied of what they are…

05/10/08

Whatever you do, never…as in never give in to your anger! Whatever you want to say when you’re mad, hold it! You don’t probably mean it, and if you do… and would surely regret it!

I was surprise (not in a good way) on how I reacted… I should’ve kept my mouth shut. I shouldn’t have spoken a word. Whether I was right or wrong, it was better if I didn’t say anything at all. I really hated myself! How could I have been so immature? Argh!